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thankyou for visiting

created a couple neocities pages before
(abandoned...

) but this is my new
personal site!

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gif heavy! and still under construction ♡

credit: drugsbowsandbandaids ♡

about

kay ⟢ 27 ⟢ she/her ⟢ uk/germany

infj ⟢ aquarius ⟢ daughter of cain ⟢ dive ⟢ innogrey stan
lace monster ⟢ wannabe living doll 𐙚 ˖˚♱

i love jfashion, visual novels (kara no shoujo series esp ♡), makeup, drawing, alternative subcultures (mainly morute, dollcore, gurokawaii, southern gothic), webdev & my fiance ♡

tumblr ⟢ vndb ⟢ last.fm ⟢ spotify ⟢ pinterest

neocities profile

favourites

music ┈ ive, ethel cain, nicole dollanganger, pale waves, deftones, sewerslvt/cynthoni, illit, capsule, daoko, phoebe bridgers, wisp, lana del rey, hole, the cure, beabadoobee, after, alissic, lots of vn/anime ost's ...see more on tab

credit: chichirid ♡ visual novels ┈ kara no shoujo (1-3), cartagra, clannad, euphoria, steins;gate, subarashiki hibi, the house in fata morgana, higurashi no naku koro ni/kai/rei, white album 2, totono, tenshi no inai 12-gatsu, flowers ...see more on tab

credit: yurimaxxing ♡ games ┈ silent hill series (1-4, p.t & f), yume nikki, yume 2kki, .flow, bloodborne, the witch's house, white day: a labyrinth named school, bloodrayne, kingdom hearts, catherine, haunting ground, fatal frame series, devotion, hello charlotte

credit: illustngel ♡ movies ┈ all about lily chou-chou, lilya 4-ever, audition, love & pop, black swan, may, gone girl, prisoners, ringu, it, gummo, scott pilgrim, nymphomaniiac, mulholland dr, coraline, sucker punch, belladonna of sadness, the love witch, ginger snaps, carrie/carrie 2, pan's labyrinth, the world of kanako, helter skelter, girl interrupted, welcome to the dollhouse, excision, the vvitch, solanin

credit: illustngel ♡ tv ┈ my mad fat diary, when life gives you tangerines, Naoki Urasawa's Manben, skins, american horror story (1-4), pretty little liars, fleabag, pushing daisies, produce 48, girls planet 999 ⟢ [guilty pleasures] the girls next door, rock of love/2/bus, daisy of love

credit: landmineexplosiongirl ♡ anime ┈ clannad/after story, steins;gate, myself;yourself, another, shiki, ah! my goddess, mirai nikki, xxxHolic, haruhi suzumiya, vampire knight, neon genesis evangelion, serial experiments lain, death note, sailor moon, cardcaptor sakura ⟢ [ova/movies] angel's egg, malice@doll, howl's moving castle, 5cm per second, end of evangelion, hotarubi no mori e, perfect blue

credit: iveeaten3humanorganz ♡ manga ┈ the flowers of evil, inside mari, okaeri alice (shuzo oshimi) ⟢ xxxHolic, kobato, chobits (clamp) ⟢ solanin, oyasumi punpun, a girl on the shore (inio asano) ⟢ nana, paradise kiss, kagen no tsuki (ai yazawa) ⟢ vampire knight (matsuri hino) ⟢ #drcl (shinichi sakamoto) ⟢ metamorphosis (shindo L) ⟢ mai-chan no nichijo (waita uziga)

credit: pixel-world ♡ books ┈ wuthering heights (emily bronte) ⟢ the bell jar, unabridged journals (sylvia plath) ⟢ girl interrupted (susanna kaysen) ⟢ alice's adventures in wonderland/through the looking-glass (lewis carroll) ⟢ the virgin suicides (jeffrey eugenides) ⟢ my year of rest & relaxation (otessa moshfegh) ⟢ heaven (mieko kawakami) ⟢ convenience store woman (sayaka murata) ⟢ it (stephen king) / it (alexa chung) ⟢ millennium gothic (dorian bridges) ⟢ normal people, intermezzo (sally rooney)

credit: kiirumiko ♡ credit: irldenji ♡ credit: junabuggy ♡ credit: mellochocosyrup ♡ credit: ninosferatu ♡

& more...

(from my tumblr)

visual novels

relatively new to visual novels (read like 25ish) but quickly has become my favourite type of media ♡

favourites

(hover for titles, click for vndb page ♡)

collection

i have yet to put things up on display since i'm moving soon but here is a haul or two until i can...

cosplays

(official and unoffical)

favourite artists/bands

Ethel Cain // credit: tennineteentwentyonesixtyseven ♡ IVE // credit: stamprequestie ♡ Nicole Dollanganger // credit: kittenwithangelwings ♡ The Cure // credit: kiirumiko ♡ Deftones // credit: kiirumiko ♡
Cynthoni // credit: mellochocosyrup ♡ Poppy // credit: clinicallydumb ♡ ILLIT // credit: likeymelikeylikeylikey19 ♡ Phoebe Bridgers // credit: becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot ♡ Lana Del Rey // credit: righteousscribe ♡
Moi Dix Mois // credit: meowyy24 ♡ Sky Ferreira // credit: 01-heaven ♡ Hole // credit: my-friend-goo ♡ beabadoobee // credit: aroacebat ♡ Slayyyter // credit: worstgirlinaustralia ♡

+ pale waves, capsule, iz*one, taeyeon, yena, rescene, kep1er, daoko, ano, searows, now now, the smiths, the stone roses, my bloody valentine, newdad, wisp, crystal castles/alice glass, lorde, audrey hobert, doss, after, elliott smith, the 1975, chelsea wolfe, grouper, cowgirl clue, alissic, elita, malice mizer & lots of VN/anime OST's

favourite songs

check webamp bottom left ♡

favourite albums/ep's

Preacher's Daughter - Ethel Cain // credit: sayasings ♡

Willoughby Tucker, I Will Always Love You - Ethel Cain // credit: sidequest-season ♡

Punisher - Phoebe Bridgers // credit: sidequest-season ♡

Join the Dots: B-Sides & Rarities - The Cure

Ode to Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs - Nicole Dollanganger

Natural Born Losers - Nicole Dollanganger

Married In Mount Airy - Nicole Dollanganger

Did You Know That There's a Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd? - Lana Del Rey

Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill - Grouper

Death in the Business of Whaling - Searows

I Like It When You Sleep, for You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware of It - The 1975

we had good times together, don't forget that - Sewerslvt

Sewerslvt Presents: Cynthoni, Pt. 1 - Cynthoni

favourite original soundtracks

diary

shrine pages

coming soon ♡

see more here

favourites

jfashion ┈ ero/gothic lolita, gurokawaii, yami kawaii/menhera, seifuku, jirai, subcul jirai, tenshi kaiwai, vkei, kogal gyaru, classic & old school lolita

credit: numbpill ♡ brands ┈ h.Naoto, acdc rag, liz lisa, dearmylove, rojita, ank rouge, axes femme, morph8ne, dark in love, putumayo, igirl, creaturesque, devil666ish, burleska, cyberdog, innocent world, moi-meme-moitie, evelyn, peace now/bpn, alice auaa

styles/aesthetics ┈ morute, dollcore, southern gothic, latex & lace, pastel goth, whimsigoth, indie sleaze, grunge, trad & romantic goth

outfits

my art

i've just started doing art after 10 years again so i don't have a lot here and don't have a specific style yet or anything but it's fun so i want to do more in the future

website stuff

* all links open in a new tab! *

neckdoll.jp - amazing japanese gothic free materials site
mouse sparkles - sparkling mouse cursor for websites
pixel-soup - my favourite tumblr for pixels
webamp tutorial - simple guide on how to install a webamp
winamp skin museum - winamp skin archive (can use on webamp)
gfypet - virtual pet for your website
webneko - adds a lil cat to the corner of your page ₍^. .^₎⟆

favourite websites

netgoth - early 2000's time capsule profile site of the UK goth scene, complete with UK gothmap
vndb - *the* visual novel database
innocentgrey - favourite VN company's website (i love japanese websites forever being stuck in the 2000's pls never change)
lily-chou-chou.jp - website of the film 'all about lily-chou-chou' [also has a cool fanmade recreation site here ]
fauux - iconic serial experiments lain inspired rabbithole
cameron's world - another iconic rabbithole
priestboy - my favourite tumblr graphics blog
lolita history - nice collection of GLB scans and lolita fashion archives

youtube channels

of herbs and altars - one of my favourite youtubers, mostly makes nostalgia/ED/rambly videos but my favourite series is The Nostalgia Project documenting the early 2000's UK goth scene [also have in book format - Millenium Gothic]
evefrsr - favourite makeup channel
ethel cain - 'my favourite types of gay prn' and 'chipping paint (kelsey's birthday party)' next to the most beautiful music to ever exist
IVE - IVE official youtube channel
gungnir - InnocentGrey/Noesis offical youtube channel
keromakura - KeroQ/Makura offical youtube channel
tamakid - favourite decoden/doll customization/art/crafts & toy channel, her style is immaculate
kamikaze_shortbus - my favourite femcel older sister
inio asano - i watch his streams even if i don't know what he's saying, i'm such a fan ( ; ω ; )
PiroPito - the 'my house walk-through' guy is making a horror game now! (((0u0)))
Q - creepy japanese fake documentaries/news reports/found footage ARG style videos
yumechi - cute jirai/oshikatsu youtuber
chopa - crazy gyaru girl i love her
Girl Underwater - favourite doll channel
Lulu Hashimoto - favourite living doll/kigurumi girl
IGIRL - fashion/vlogs/thrifting, adore her brand/depop
RYU'S PENNA - Korean lifestyle/fashion/beauty vlogger
Kleiner Pixel - favourite cosplay channel
cybr.grl - cutest decora girl
98DEMAKE - your favourite games if they were made in 1998
gigi murakami - western horror mangaka documenting her process
bennycake - retro style cake decorating videos
livvylove - favourite ASMR channel

online stores

buyee.jp - proxy i use to get things from japan
dreamybows - a bit slow to stock new items but best UK kawaii shop
burleska - favourite goth/corsetry store
creaturesque - sublime UK small business
devil666ish - window-shop here all the time but they have so many crazy/cute accessory designs
morph8ne - another window-shop site, prettiest collections ever based in Thailand
igirl / depop - love igirl forever ♡ bella was a big inspiration to start an online store

neocities sites

coming soon ♡

credits

most graphics are individually tagged if you hover over! if you want me to add credit / take something down pls just ask ♡
dollywons - divider graphics

this site was hand-coded with ♡
pls don't steal or copy my code or website layout

guestbook

coming soon ♡